Funk

Woke up feeling crummy.

Slept horribly because my mouth kept drying out and my nose was congested so I had to keep breathing out of my mouth. Thus, after 2:30 a.m., I awoke about every 15-20 minutes with a horribly dry mouth.

Also had alcohol last night, three drinks. That's three drinks too many, and I felt hung over. It was better when I wasn't drinking anything.

Have been having trouble sleeping, so I've been using my sleeping pills on several nights.

All combined I think it's having a negative effect.

Fought with Rover this morning as he left to go watch his best buddy's kid's football game. He's mad that I didn't want to go with him and said he's mad that I sprung it on him at the last minute, that I should have told him yesterday or at least earlier this morning. Sorry. I guess I should have told him ealier. I just called and apologized for not having done so. He apologized for having a snit.

Fact is I don't want to go to kiddie foot ball every weekend. That's part of the reason why we went to Oregon, yes, all the way to Oregon. We went to watch his 10-year-old nephew play foot ball and his 12-year-old niece play soccer. Fine. But I don't want to do that every weekend. I don't even want to do it semi-regularly. Every once in a while is okay, but not all the time. We used to just show up for the last half of the game, but when I suggested we go late today, Rover said no. But to me they're boring events. I can only be polite for so long. I don't want to stand around for an hour and a half. I can be happily doing other things.

So now when I think about what I missed in not being a parent, instead of having regret, I'm thankful. I would hate to have to go to all those stupid games just to be a "good mother."

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Blah. I just feel like crap today. My mood is crap. I think I'll go try to take a nap. Maybe I'll feel better if I get some sleep.