Cleansing

Did I mention I sprained my foot? I think I did. Well, timing is everything, because being off of work makes for a perfect time to do my Master Cleanse. Additionally, I forgot to bring my birth control pills along on Rover's and my little vacation in Oregon, so I'm completely drug free right now. That makes it doubly a good time to do a fast/cleanse.

For a week or more, I'm supposed to drink nothing more than this lemon-maple syrup concoction along with lots of water and nightly laxative tea. Hmmmm. RoomyEx did it for 15 days and said she had plenty of energy. So far, it's 2:00, and I'm starving!!! Don't know how long I can keep it up, but I'll give it a try.

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Still no head meds. Still feel really happy. I'm more emotional and I cry more easily, but my tears don't last long. And they're not bad tears. Often, I feel completely sappy about Rover and when I tell him how I feel, my eyes well up. So those are good tears. And then, like this weekend, sometimes they're tears of self-pity, wishing I'd had a life I didn't. But then I pull myself back in and remind myself to be thankful for what I have now.

I was sorting through a box this morning and came across some loose photos of my wedding day to RacerEx. He/we looked so young and happy. Looking at him made me miss him. So I welled up with tears and put the pictures away. No sense in thinking about it, things are they way they are.

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Still feeling somewhat muddle-headed and almost dizzy during much of the day. Perhaps less so, but it's difficult to tell. I'm hoping it's Celexa withdrawal, but I don't know. Around 4:00 or 4:30, I'm almost disablingly sleepy and it's all I can do to power through without a nap. With or without the nap, I'm not sleeping well at night like I did when I was on the Celexa. Slept better on the Celexa than I ever have in my life. Unfortunately, good sleep habits didn't carry over to non-Celexa life.

Drank some cocktails in Oregon, but I have to abstain again now that I'm on the cleanse. Good news is they didn't have any negative effect on my mood. But I didn't drink too much, and it was just over the weekend, so not exactly long-term use. Still, I will keep booze to a minimum or cut it out completely for long periods of time now.

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I need to diet. And exercise more.

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Phony nails are still looking GREAT! Nary a chip, split or crack. Polish is completely in tact, and I've been rough on them.

My advice: gel not acrylic.

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Gotta get going now. I've lost my camera battery charger and it's driving me nuts. Could swear I've been looking at it on my desk for the last several months, but no. Also, must go pick up for the cleaning lady who is coming by to give me an estimate.

See ya.