A Long Way

I do think it's better to open one's mouth and say what's on one's mind.

I was feeling kind of crummy about the prospect of Rover's seeing other people. When he called me the other night, he detected in my voice that something was wrong and he called me on it. I finally admitted that it's difficult for me to wait around for him to pull the rug out from underneath me. I told him that I realized I'd accepted his terms (that he would probably sleep with someone else by the end of this year) and that by doing so I had little room to complain but that it bothered me all the same and was getting me down.

He was very reassuring. He promised me that he was not looking for anyone else, that he was very happy with me and that he was not going to be sleeping with anyone. He said that I shouldn't worry, that he didn't want thing to be all messed up the way they've been over the last several years and that I should relax. He told me that we're going to be okay.

So I feel better. And I would like to fool around with him and other people. He expressed that if he were to sleep with another woman, he'd like to do so with me, that he would like to make it happen. I've agreed that I will do that with him. I'd like to. Besides, we've had two separate encounters with BlueEyes and they've both been fantastic. I think what differentiates Rover from RacerEx and DodgerEx is that, while he finds the idea of threesomes exciting, he isn't distracted by the need to do it and isn't actively seeking it out or pushing for it.

He's more the "if the moment strikes and is right" kind of person--as is the way it happened with BlueEyes. We derive a lot of pleasure just from contemplating it, from keeping it just between the two of us. The fantasy alone and the freedom to discuss it out loud has thus far been outlet enough.

Also, it's nice just to go out, like we did last night, see some hot girl and sit together, head to head, and whisper to one another about how amazing she looks and talk about what we'd like to see the other do to her. That conversation alone is erotic, stimulating and satisfying. It's downright fun.

So I'm reassured and feeling pervy again.

Yay me.